Chapter 245: The bet that didn't go well (3)
I am really an idiot, aren't I?
I should have called her, at least after I returned to the academy. I am sure that I am the reason that she is crying.
She should have heard the devastation that happened at Repest. I should have called her, at least yesterday evening. Maybe her worries would have lessened.
"I am sorry, I should have called as soon as I returned. I didn't think. Sorry for being an idiot", I apologized to her before saying anything else.
With the misery I have indirectly caused to her, this is the least I could do to her. There is no other way.
Instead of thinking and analysing useless data, if I need a good and stable life, I need to think more about the people around me, rather than some future scenario.
I should start living in the present, not the future. Living in the future would be how you would lose everything that you have now. So instead of thinking about the shitty future that may or may not be happening in the future, I should live more in the present.
I want a peaceful life and for that to happen, I need to stop picturing various future scenarios. I mean, I need to think about the future but that should occupy a small portion not the entire portion of my thoughts.
Without proper planning for the future, how could one proceed in life?
So preparing for the future is important but living in the present is much more important than that.
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"Angela, I'm sorry. I should have called you once I returned to the academy. The thing was...", I continued to tell her what happened during the monster tide and what I did after I returned to the academy. I skipped the part where I spent time with Asya in the secret realm.
Instead of that, I said that my body was still tired and only woke up because of hunger. Once I ate to fill my belly, it returned to sleep. Only in the morning did I wake up and after having breakfast I went to the mission hall because they might mark him as dead after what happened at Repest.
Once I was done with the mission, I promptly came here, only to see her crying and hugging me as if I would disappear if she let go of me.
I apologized to her a few more times, hoping that could ease the situation but she said something I never thought to hear.
"No, it's all my fault. I should have never made that bet", Angela muttered in a low voice.
Though she said what she did in a low voice, I heard it perfectly but had no idea about what she was muttering about.
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Why would she say that?
How could this be her fault?
What does she mean by "I should have never made that bet"?
What bet is she talking about?
I need answers, but now she is crying and it would be insensitive to talk about that. Let her be more stable when I would ask her about this.
"You look tired. You should go to sleep," I said and turned to Celine. "Miss Celine, can you take your sister to sleep? It looks like she needs it more than anything."
Celine nodded in agreement. "Come on Angy, you need to sleep. He is going nowhere for now. So you can spend as much time as you want after taking proper rest".
It was quite troublesome to get Angela to her bed. She got attached to me like a Koala. It was difficult but not impossible. She was tired and looked sleepy with all the lack of sleep while she thought I was missing. So her body gave up resistance easily.
After prying her from me, Celine took her sister to the bedroom to get her proper rest.
I waved to them, "We'll talk tomorrow", I said as I too returned to my room.
There is nothing for me to do for now. So I would be returning to Nexus, where I decided to spend the day. I lack information about this world. By reading most books available to me, I thought I learned most about it.
Even reading all the books that are available doesn't mean I know everything about this world. There is a lot that is not available in books or lost in time. Moreover, I didn't complete the library of either the academy or the Nexus.
The reason why I wanted to dive back into the books was because of those damn monsters that attacked me and the group that went to clear out the monsters that entered the town in the middle of monster tide.
Those monsters that attacked us are not stealth monsters but they acted like one and I have no idea how.
I need to find that. If information such as that remains unknown, that would be a danger to my life, which I can't let happen no matter what. No sane person would let that happen when it regards to their life and death.
What happened at the monster tide, is something that can't be replicated easily I believe but I need to know for sure about that and the reason why I decided to dive into the books for now.
I also have to dive into the books that are available in the academy's library, which were not accessible before the fourth year.
Since this is the last year before I leave the academy for good, I need to absorb everything that there is in the academy library. After I graduate, unless I become a staff here, I won't have permission to enter the library.
So whatever the academy can offer, I need to make the best use of everything before the year is over.
Moreover, once I graduate, I don't think that I will have much time to read or train. I would be facing a lot of things, that would make those things take a back seat.
This year would be the last before I would face the hurdles of life without proper backup.
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